I had a weird time in school today.
Gosh. I do believe she was right.
I mean, who couldn't take a hint that was presented on a silver platter like that?
It's not that I'm doing it intentionally. I tried not to, in fact.
Really. So, why do some people keep seeing me and others who have the same mentality in the same way?
We aren't criminals, you know.
We aren't sweltering from the heat of oppression, so everyone has their own free will.

I wasn't meant to be a mean person, like Zee said.
In fact, I'm NOT a mean person.
I give people first impressions of being quiet and extremely tolerating.
That's probably why they thought I could fit with anyone.
To a large extent, that is very true.
I can really click with some people, but to others it's just like *meet*---*twitches*----*poof*----*is pissed off almost immediately*.
To these people, it might seem very unfair that I don't treat them nicely, but to put it frankly and bluntly, there's something about you that I dislike, and you probably keep showing that characteristic to me.
Direct apologies to XS and Zach. But because I like to bully both of you, I'll carry on doing so. ;D
Anyway, don't be offended. As you see me IRL, I don't really scold people or get angry at them.
So I will be nice to you, okay? If you're nice to me too. (:

That's only on one hand. But on the other... (Oh. this is a ranting post. Don't bother to read it if you're not in the mood.)
There are some people who really have "low EQ" and keep "[injecting] little tidbits of information about themselves into the topic".
And of course, no one really wanted to know.
I think these are the people who really need to go for self-improvement.
Look. I said I was going for MC. Who are you to criticise me, or my class?
I love them, okay?
Just because you don't see this opportunity to go for MC as a useful experience doesn't mean you get the right to badmouth us.
You need a dose of Vanessa/Eunice/Cairn/Chinmire @ CC.
Knowing the atmosphere around you is the first step to making friends.
Which you, sadly, phail at.
I was shocked at the way you tried to cover your acts up.
You really should stop making excuses. And you need to wake up and see why people cannot get along with you.
It isn't right to assume.
What if I assumed you were a horrible person from the start?
Would we even have been acquaintances, much less would we have been friends?
But of course, in your eyes, everything must revolve around you, so I was the bad person in this friendship and I didn't want to be your friend after a while.
But the real question is: Is that really the truth?
Ask yourself.
Did I not make an effort to be your friend?
Did I not make an effort to talk to you and listen to your problems?
Did I not make an effort to cheer you up?
Did I not make an effort to help you with your schoolwork?
Did I not make an effort to let you get used to my attitude?
Did I not make an effort to be nice to you a lot of the time?
Did I not make an effort to be extra tolerant?
Did I not make an effort to stop myself from shouting at you?
Did I not make an effort to keep smiling at you?
Did I not make an effort to respect you?
Did I not make an effort to regard you as someone with great aspirations?
Did I not make an effort to let you know more about me?
Did I not make an effort to welcome you and let you know my friends?
Did I not make an effort to let you know what I like?
Did I not make an effort to answer you politely each time?
Did I not make an effort to try joking with you to lighten the mood?

And what did I get?
You said I didn't see you as a friend.
You said I ignored you when you wanted to talk to me.
You said I didn't care about you at all.
You said I was more concerned about my grades and gloating about them while trying to 'assist' you.
You said I was insensitive when it came to you.
You said I was mean to you all the time.
You said I had a short temper.
You said I was always angry and screaming at you.
You said I always had a black face when talking to you.
You said I thought you were stupid.
You said I treated you like junk.
You said I alienated you.
You said I had favourites that were stupid, and that yours were all better. (Gosh you know how much this pisses me off? I don't NEED to tell you what I like and get them trashed by you.)
You said I was rude to you.
You said I was being insensitive and I shouldn't have made a joke about that.

Face it.
If you make so many accusations, who would want to be your friend?
I have a particular friend whom I disliked for a long time.
She's now one of my closest friends ever. And I trust her, really, even though sometimes I joke about with her and I get very frustrated with her.
You know what?
She never accused me of anything before.
I like being her friend. And she gets on my nerves a lot of the time because our personalities crash occasionally.
But she's really my friend. And I really regard her as my friend too.
I really thought you were a nice person before.
And then suddenly, I 'saw the light'.
You weren't what you turned out to be.
At first I thought you were admirable because you were so hardworking.
But no, I don't see that now.
I only see bull-headedness.
And that is putrid.
So, I'm sorry.
But I don't like you.





Warn your warmth to turn away
Here It's December,everyday
Press your lips to the sculptures
And surely you'll stay (love like winter)
For of sugar and ice...I am made, I am made


It's in the blood,It's in the blood
I met my love,before I was born
He wanted love,I taste of blood
He bit my lip,and drank my war
From years before,from years before

She exhales vanilla lace
I barely dreamt her yesterday(yesterday)...
Read the lines in the mirror through the lipstick trace: "Por Siempre."
She said,"It seems you're somewhere,faraway."
To his face.

It's in the blood,It's in the blood
I met my love,before I was born
She wanted love,I taste of blood
She bit my lip,and drank my war
From years before,from years before

Love like winter...Oh...Oh...
Love like winter...winter...Pray for...

It's in the blood,It's in the blood
I met my love,before I was born
She wanted love,I taste of blood
She bit lip,and drank my war
From years before,from years before